I completely understand and know that toddlers will say and do the darndest things and they will do these things repeatedly. They will repeatedly test your will to follow through with the rules of the house. Children will repeatedly push your buttons in ways that they have never been pushed before. They test a parents patience and push the bindings of love to the limit. Being Lucy's mom, I have said and done things that I never thought I would say or do before. I would have told you, "NOT in a millions years would I ever say that!"
It was not me who yelled, "NO! Don't shove your Elmo DVD into the tape slot! It doesn't go in that one. You'll break it!"
It was not me who instructed Lucy not stick her fingers in her poop.
It was not me who seriously thought about getting out the duct tape to securely fasten Lucy's diaper to her body. The girl wants to get naked constantly!
It was not me who cheered loudly and got misty-eyed when Lucy went poop on the big girl toilet.
It was not me who let my little nursling Lucy know that putting her hand down my shirt while out shopping is not okay. "We have to wait until we get home to have milk." Never thought I'd say that!
It was not me who got excited about buying the book "If You Give A Pig A Party" and it certainly was not me who read it to Lucy seven times in a row before bed that night.
It was not me who described Lucy's cystic fibrosis poop as "sticky and pasty like peanut butter and a little greasy" over the phone to Lucy's daddy.
It was not me who wished today that cystic fibrosis would just take a long walk off a short pier or at least go on a vacation. I was not me who wanted to take a break from breathing treatments, enzymes and other daily medications. It is not me who needs a break. It is Lucy.
I say and do these crazy motherly things I NEVER thought I would do. I do them all for Lucy. We manage to get through these days still loving each other even more than the day before. We live life as mother and toddler and we test each other's patience along the way. Life is pretty good and I'm learning every step of the way.